Monday, 1 October 2012

||| The Diary ::: Last Goodbyes |||


THE FINAL DAY


  Boy                                                                                                    Girl 

It was finally the graduation ceremony
a moment to be looking forward to...
                                                                                         ...since the first day ofuniversity when I had
                                                                                         first seen him. Such an occasion but still...
...my thoughts, against my own will were diverted
towards the girl in the third row, fourth place.
She looked more attractive than before, maybe...
                                                                                         ...because of the blue ceremonial robes
                                                                                         he was wearing. He looked older and a bit                                                                                                   mature as well. My eyes wandered and I saw                                                                                            my parents...
...sitting near the front, so proud of their son,
witnessing such a moment.Even then, I...
                                                                                          ...was thinking about him. After                                                                                                                the camera flashed, we threw our hats in the                                                                                            air...

...being a little sad; I liked those hats! I saw
my childhood friends around me and
I hugged them, realizing then...  
                                                                                         ...This was actually a moment                                                                                                                     to cherish. I waved at my family and started                                                                                             walking towards them when...
...I realized that she...
                                                                                         ...was walking towards me. I...
...took a gulp, ignoring her and kept my eyes on
my family. At that moment...
                                                                                        ...I realized something. Something that sent a                                                                                            wave of dullness through me. As we...
...Walked towards each other I realized that this
was probably the last time we will ever...                       
                                                                                       ... see each other, ever in our life. This thought
                                                                                       made my knees shudder slightly and...
...my heartbeat escalated; I could feel the thumping
in my head. My legs...                                                      
                                                                                       ...were shaking. It was the same feeling as the
                                                                                       first time we had talked just...
...this was the last time we would everget such
a chance. Should I...
                                                                                       ...talk now?! ha! Say what?Sorry for acting like
                                                                                       that when you were around? Even...
...If I wanted to talk, I couldn't bring myself to do it.
Or should I...
                                                                                        ...no, what I did is unforgivable. He could                                                                                                 never have liked me for what I did, after all..
..Why did I not accept her when she held out
her hand? I wish I had not...                                                            
                                                                                        ...acted all bitchy and accepted the slightest                                                                                             of cues that he gave.                                                                                                                                 I wish if I could, in any way...
...see if she actually loved me.
If those cues were not only my imagination, to see...
                                                                                        ...that if he actually felt something for me. We                                                                                             are parallel now. This is...
...the last moment that I have to know the truth.
To know, if we could have been together. But...      
                                                                                       ...I guess it is useless. You never really had                                                                                                 a reason to like a girl like me. I was nothing                                                                                               special. So...
...I think it is time for a silent goodbye to a person
who never even realized I existed.I think it is...
                                                                                       ...clear to me that you...
...and I...        

...are not meant to be together.                                   ...are not meant to be together.


                                 Goodbye dear diary, thank you for noting these painful                                                                            memories of mine. You were meant to record the happy                                                                               times he and I would spend together but I guess                                                                                              not every story has a happy ending.                                                                                                                               .GOODBYE.

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